4.10.2009

Well that {SUCKS}

I know I tell my kids they aren't allowed to say that word but in this case there's just no there word - actually a stronger word{s} came to mind first.

For those of you waiting with baited breath to find out where the military is sending us - take a breath and keep waiting! No, I'm really not kidding. Cameron just called and there's issues they are still working out on assignments so... no news until sometime next week.

But wait... there's more - *said sarcastically joyful* The hangups with the assignments are due to the fact that the list we ranked was not the FINAL list. Yep, ya heard right. Apparently, they want to distribute dentists a little more evenly so they changed the list after we turned in our ranked choices. They are making assignments based on a list that none of us has even seen. So, now it's just a big grab bag of choices. Neat, huh?

The silver lining in all this is maybe they put some "better" options on the new list. Problem is, we didn't get to rank so how do they know we'd want to go there? The bureaucracy in the Air Force kills me, seriously.

Like my Aunt Kim says, "just put all the worry in a little [make-believe] balloon and LET IT GO." Okay, Kim I'll try but right now I'm just P.O.'d!

just a few personal thoughts that you may or may not want to know:
{I know to some of you this may be no big deal - it is an adventure, after all. And, obviously the military looks out for #1 and not for some lowly Captain's family - I get it. I know. But it doesn't make it easier for me.
I think about where my kids will be at the end of the next four years - Landon will be in fifth grade. So close to Jr. High when friends become more important than parents. I just want him to grow up in a place where he will be happy, and safe, and confident, and well adjusted. Yes, I know that mostly depends on Cameron and I but where we live and the influences the kids are around really does make a difference too. I just get so nervous about the unknown. And this waiting for months on end to find out where we are going is wearing me out. I have faith in God and know He really does have a plan for us. The bottom line is I know we will be taken care of if we follow 1) personal revelation and answer to prayer through the Holy Ghost, 2)the teachings in the scriptures, and 3) the counsel from our church leaders - coming off Conference weekend I am bolstered with a new commitment to doing what's right. The knowlege that Heavenly Father cares about these "little" things gives me hope. But none-the-less I worry. (and please don't tell me there's people out there that have it SO much worse than me and it's just moving, not disease or death or some other horrible thing. I know that. I'll deal.) Really there is nothing I can do about it so... I gues I'll give into the adventure... tomorrow. Today I just want to be mad.}

11 comments:

shaina said...

I hear ya. It's so hard to have no say in something so important. Hope you get a good answer soon.

Ryan & Shambray said...

Oh man! I am sorry you have to wait even longer! You guys are in our hearts and prayers!

runningfan said...

Yikes! I've been waiting for your big news...and I'm so sorry to find out you have to continue to wait. Hang in there!

Colleen said...

When I saw your title before I clicked on it my stomach totally dropped. I think that until I hear you are going I can pretend that you aren't, and I don't want you going somewhere lame! You are totally justified in all your feelings. I totally remember having all those same ones when we had to move and our house wasn't selling and Adam was gone most of the time out here. Misery is not a competition, yes other miseries might be worse, but that doesn't change the fact that this is hard and frustrating and scary! And I totally get what you mean when you talk about Landon in four years. That is exactly how I feel about Adam's career plans for the next three years. Whatever he decides, it has to be before Zach starts Jr. High. That's the deal. For the exact reason you stated. Your family has been and continues to be in our prayers, my dear friend! I know it will all work out in the end, but that doesn't mean you have to do a jig while you wait!

Trinette McCrary said...

Darn-I'm so sorry!! Hang in there sweetie.

Maynards said...

Don't be too hard on yourself for getting frusterated. Get it all out there!!! What a tough situation. I sure hope it all ends up o.k. for you guys. Our prayers have been and will continue to be with you guys. You are amazing, I really don't think I could handle that. I love what Colleen said about misery not being a competition. I HATE it when I am feeling bad and people tell me that it is so much worse somewhere else or that it could be so much worse. Who cares! You feel bad and that is what counts. We are all here for you and we all understand the frusteration you must be feeling.

Steph said...

Oh man Kendra, that really does suck. I'm sorry. I've been so excited to see where you were going to live. Don't get discouraged though. My parents made us move when I was in 3rd grade, then again after I finished 6th grade. I'm not going to lie, it was pretty rough. I went to school in California where I was one of a very few LDS people in an elementary school of around 1000 and a middle school of 1800. I think I turned out ok, though some people may not agree. ;) I think you guys will be blessed wherever you go. We'll be praying for you in the meantime. We love you guys!

Kerri Whitney said...

I was looking foward to some great news...I'm so sorry that you are not getting it and that it is all getting more complicated! Is Iowa on the list? We'd love you back!
ps Happy Easter

Hillary said...

Welcome to the Air Force...if it makes you feel any better, the army and navy are a lot worse, so atleast you are AF. This will be your life for some time to come, so just get used to it. Way to have a great attitude. The Lord does know us best and what we can handle...I was SO worried about Louisiana schools for the boys, but if you do the research you can usually find the BEST schools wherever you go. Good luck, and I can't wait to hear.

Kasey said...

Geesh. I've thought about you a million times since yesterday and was just now able to check your blog. Dang! I know you are dying right now. I am and it's not even happening to me. Can't wait to hear where you are going, WHEN you finally find out.

my3suns2 said...

Man, totally sounds like the military. Maybe this will end up being good in the end and you'll get a better assignment. I'm trying to be positive for you because I remember how I felt when we got Mississippi. Tears, that's all I can say. I'll keep you in my prayers (and if you get Hawaii I'll come visit you.) You have a right to be upset. I've spent most of Dan's career being upset with the military. You can cry on my shoulder just like I cried on yours when I found out I was having another boy... and I won't say anything dumb like I've probably been saying to you for the last month! Sorry! Keep me posted.