I'd Do Anything For My Kids

Well, this blog is fast becoming my family journal and tonight I just have something to say. Since we found out that Austin was always so sick as a baby because of food allergies I've often thought, "I wish I could take that burden from him." He is always itchy, always blotchy, and pretty much always hungry. I am always living in fear that someone will give him something with a peanut in it or something will make him sick. Tonight when I took him out of the bath he started sobbing that he was hurting and then I noticed that he had scratched himself raw because of an allergic reaction he had last week (something at a resteraunt was cross-contaminated). I wanted to cry with him and all I thought was, "I wish there was something I could do."

Now, I have been given the chance to do for Zac what I can't do for Austin. Zac has the same tendencies towards milk that Austin does. I really want to keep nursing him because I think that it will keep him healthier through the winter and help his brain develop and all that. People always say they'd do anything for their kids but cutting a whole food group out of your diet is SO HARD! I almost cried today at the grocery store. Everywhere I turned there was VELVEETA and CREAM CHEESE and CHOCOLATE MILK and YOGURT. So I was feeling so sorry for myself.

When I saw poor little Austin's legs scratched raw I didn't feel sorry for myself anymore. I feel awful for him. I really do wish I could take this challenge away from him because BELIEVE me - it is a challenge!!


Sarah said...

Oh Kendra that makes me sad. You are such a good mom. Poor little Austin. I'm sorry that you guys have to deal with that. So idoes Zac have the same allergies?
Okay here is my email and I will send youthose instructions.

{say.cheese} said...

You are GREAT. I can't believe how amazing this is... You have much more will.power than I do!

Andrea said...

Oh Kendra, this just about made me cry. You are such a good mom to all of your boys, and I think it is awesome what you are giving up for Zac. I know it isn't easy for you, but I know it will be worth it.

You do an amazing job with Austin and his allergies. I don't know how you do it. He seriously is always so happy though, and even though I know it is a challenge for both of you, you are handling it with grace.

Kasey said...

Poor little Austin! The good thing is that he doesn't really know what he's missing, right? I can only imagine how hard this is for you.
I love how Austin brings his little lunch everywhere he goes! I know he feels so special bringing his own food places. He's so cute and you'd never know he has such a hard time in life b/c he's such a sweet, happy little boy!