9.22.2009

So You Had a {BAD} Day....

Yeah, we're all entitled to have a bad day once in a while. It wasn't just the ultrasound appointment - it was that the appointment sort of represented everything that's wrong with living here for me. And it was the final straw. So... I spent the day yesterday as a metophorical "vacuum of gloom" sucking my family into my despair. After the kids went to bed I went through my "checklist" of things that *stink* about living here. While I was rambling on and on I realized that I sounded a little, you know, coo-coo. I ended the conversation with Cameron like this, "I'm obviously not adjusting as well as I want to. But I do have perspective. I know that things are really not that bad. I know I have blessings, maybe more than I really deserve. I know how lucky I am to have everything I have. But I am sad. I'm working through it. I'm getting used to things. Things will be fine. I just need to keep my perspective."

So, that's what I'm doing. It's obvious Mountain Home isn't where I want to live for the rest of my life. But it's where I am now. And I still feel strongly about socialized medicine and the rest of yesterday's rampage. And my pregnancy and the hormones and other symptoms (migraines, backaches, and fatigue) that come along with it don't make things easier on me.

But everyday I try a little harder to be more of the person I want to be. I try to be more organized. I try to be more cheerful. I try to block out the things that I hate about being here and focus on the good (I'm sure soon I'll find more good, right?!) Here's what I'm thankful for and the things that give me my perspective in life:


my "Rachel" from Friends haircut finally grew out enough I could cut off the fringe that made my mushroom top layers so full. Although, I'm trying to grow my hair out again, I was SO happy to see that inch of pointless fringe fall to the ground. And, (surprise!) I got my hair cut here. The girl did a pretty good job, I think.




These kids are the BEST EVER~

Cameron~ very grateful for this guy. great dad. great husband.

15 comments:

runningfan said...

Sorry you're having a hard time! At least your hair looks great -- great hair can go a long way to brighten my day!

Kasey said...

I love your haircut! And I am totally with you on the feelings you're having about where you live. I was right where you are a year ago. And being pregnant only makes those feelings stronger! As if the first year somewhere new weren't hard enough, right?

So...when DO you find out?

Steph said...

I love your hair! Way cute, Kendra! That first picture of Landon really reminds me of Jared. He's totally pulling a Jared face, don't you think? What a stud. You do have one good-looking family, I have to say. ;)

Steph said...

Sorry, I meant Austin!

Jenn S said...

Very cute hair! You are beautiful! Love that you had that rampage yesterday...I might have my own tonight on my blog! hee, hee

Colleen said...

Hey, we are all entitled to bad days and grump fests from time to time! I have been SO grouchy today, my poor kids and Adam is travelling, so I am extra pathetic! You look incredible, Kendra, and I am glad you are feeling a little better about it all today. Fortunately, with the bad comes the good!

Ryan & Shambray said...

I LOVE your hair! I hope your days keep getting better. They always say it gets bad before it gets really good. Good luck with everything!

Trinette McCrary said...

Ohh, hang in there sweetie. You look beautiful. I know it is hard to make the best of life sometimes. Count your many blessings-blah,blah,blah! It's okay to feel grumpy sometimes. I think it is healthy to get it out of your system.

MaloyMayhem said...

Oh Kendra, you are beautiful!! I'm sorry you are having a hard time. I know I feel like I've been grumpy since April, but this too shall pass and life will feel alright once again! Miss you!

Maynards said...

Your hair looks adorable! Wow, I am jealous. I am still growing out my mullet. You are tough for trying to make the best out of everything. It shows your true character ya know. You are a great person.

my4suns2 said...

You DO look fabulous! I don't know what kind of a haircut to ask for but it's at that hangy -do nothing stage and my best friend is the ponytail...yours always looks so cute...wish you were here!
Thanks for your thoughts on perspective. We all need that sometimes. BTW, what are the guys making in the pictures? Looks like a familiar scene. And, Landon looks like a rockin' soccer player. Dallin is playing this year and the first game was good, but let's just say he doesn't really know much about it yet. He's fast, though!

[S Rizzle] said...

I <3 YOUR HAIR!! LOVE YOU GIRL. We need a picture of your belly.

shauntelle said...

i'm so proud of you! so many people just don't have perspective. you are an incredible person.

Nancy K said...

Model model! Your hair is darling.
Oh, miss you!

510Jen said...

Cute little Kendra. I miss you. I wish mountain home wasn't so miserable. You definitely can make the best of things. And yes there is plenty to be grateful for.
Your Rachel hair is darling.